herpingforderps: n000bz: this. This this

herpingforderps:

n000bz:

this.

This this

We split, you found happiness, I couldn’t. You found it and it wasn’t me. For me, its always the been you. Fuck you for that.

(Source: little-blackbook)

(Source: staypozitive)

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You will never know what’s behind my skull. So wont you say goodnight so I can say goodbye.//

Won’t you got to someone else’s dreams? Won’t you go to someone else’s head? Haven’t you taken enough from me? Won’t you torture someone else’s sleep?//

I start to part two halves of my heart in the dark and I,
Don’t know where I should go,
And the tears and the fears begin to multiply,
Taking time in a simple place,
In my bed where my head rests on a pillowcase,
And it’s said that a war’s lead but I forget,
That I let another day go by,
I want to be afraid but it seems that these days,
I’m caught under water and I’m falling farther,
My heart’s getting harder, I’m calling my father,
Am I screaming to an empty sky?
Empty sky, no way, that’s me ‘cause one half of my heart is free,
Empty sky, no way, that’s me ‘cause the other half of my heart’s asleep.

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“Anathema” - Twenty One Pilots 
“You’re gone, gone, gone away, I watched you disappear. All that’s left is a ghost of you. Now we’re torn, torn torn apart there’s nothing we can do.”
“Little Talks” - Of Monsters and Men 

Okay seriously?

This is getting bad again. I’m so helpless and I don’t know how to get over it. I can’t go to any of my friends, because I have to act like I don’t care. And really, what would they do? I certainly can’t go to you… that would be disaster waiting to happen. I can’t show that weakness or bear that rejection. I’m scared that I’ll feel this way for a long time, and I don’t want it to last. I want to be done with it, but I don’t want to forget you. I’m so stuck and I only have a month. I need to accept the fact that nothing else will ever happen, it can’t. But that fact just isn’t registering in my brain, and part of me doesn’t want it to. I don’t want to do or be anything without you, and you’re in my head all the time. I wish you would just leave, or talk to me, or come back. Something that would make this okay again. I can’t stand that with every guy that flirts with me, I think of you. I can’t STAND it. I’m doomed, this is going to last forever. 

If I’m going to survive this I’m going to have to start caring.